Flanked by sleeplessness and exasperation I lay wide-eyed, my listless thoughts drifting above shallow straits flooding of smothering purposelessness and spudding self-loathing. I try to rummage for missing words, broken syllables and unfinished sentences at the corners of my recent memory, chucking out the drawers, prying under musty rugs. I am in pointless desperation to put proper names to anonymous clouds that have taken dwelling in the dankness of my room. A thin fragment of it floats above the murk but when I try to reach it, it dodges my grasp, quietly sinking into the bleak mush of world-weariness and exhaustion. Somewhere a story, a verse, a prose, a sonnet is waiting to happen. Meantime, all I have is a wisp of undifferentiated nothingness. A splintered paragraph suspended by cataclysmic dreaming and shallow breathing.
October 24, 2008
October 24th, 2008 at 2:02 pm
You know that I admire your writing prowess buddy. But please, you seriously need to pick yourself up. You can’t let others do that for you. And one more thing. The S word dude. Come on. You have your whole life ahead of you. You know what? I hardly know you anymore. It’s like you’ve undergone a lot of change. Radical change. You may delete this comment once you read this, but please, imbibe what I said. If it’s possible, please smear it on your skin and let your bones absorb it.
October 24th, 2008 at 4:00 pm
emo.
I just wish I know what all this emo-ness is about. But hey, whatever it is, the poster just above this kinda said everything. He may be uhm a retard but listen to him.
October 25th, 2008 at 1:05 pm
I think I’m becoming the old Ken I used to be. For some weird reasons, I find myself transforming. It might probably take some time for me to recover from the mustiness of it all. But for now, I’ll die in peace.
October 25th, 2008 at 9:13 pm
Dude. SERIOUSLY.
October 25th, 2008 at 10:19 pm
whatever it is that’s bugging you, we’re here ken. =)
October 26th, 2008 at 2:00 pm
save your ass man. come on, let’s go out! all you need is a good booze.
October 28th, 2008 at 5:31 am
chillax
November 1st, 2008 at 11:47 pm
napadaan lang ako sa blog mo. i like your writing style. for what it’s worth, depression does you good. it instigates deep contemplation.
November 3rd, 2008 at 10:15 am
bullshit.